For as long as I can remember, I have always struggled with the frequently asked question, “What do you want to be when you grow up?”
Now I am 24, I still find myself unable to answer that question, and that’s okay. All I have ever known is that I want to make a difference, I want to help people. Having struggled with mental health in my early teens, I found myself being drawn towards psychology – I wanted to sit on the chair opposite the patient and help them through their daily struggles, because I knew how it felt to hit rock bottom. Hence my education being psychology-driven post sixth-form. I graduated with a BSc in Psychology in November 2018 and went on a volunteer mental health placement in Sri Lanka in December 2018. Spending my first ever Christmas away from my family of ten was an incredible challenge but there, I helped people in the Sri Lankan community every day. I saw poverty you only ever see on shows such as Children in Need, in both the medical and psychological world. I worked with people who had deep mental health issues: drug addiction, suicidal ideations, physical disabilities with little resources and more, while trying to adapt to life in Sri Lanka with strangers from around the world. The projects we did made the community smile, and it cemented my passion in helping people.
I never planned on joining the police; I had thought about it but that is as far as it went. I was jobless when I came back from Sri Lanka, and saw a vacancy from West Mercia Police seeking an Enquiry Officer at front counter. I didn’t really know what that entailed, but went for it anyway, because why not? I knew the police had a lot to offer and was a respected profession, regardless of position. I was successful in my application and one of my first thoughts when I got to headquarters for interview was “Why is everyone white?”. That sounds terrible to put on paper, but I saw so many people wandering and never saw anyone who I would class as a minority like myself. I wasn’t surprised to be honest, because I had only ever seen white police officers. Little did I know when I got “in”, there were many people from the BAME community in varying roles.
During the interview, I remember being told “You will be the face of West Mercia, dealing with the public face-on” and I relayed that to my Dad, who is Black African. He was so happy and said, “My baby will be the first non-white face of the police”, of course metaphorically and before I was even offered the role. I was indeed the only White and Black African member of staff across all of West Mercia’s front counters, which did surprise me.
Regardless, I was able to fulfil my passion in helping people every day, whether that be via a phone call when helping control room with demand, a domestic abuse victim attending the counter in tears needing immediate resources and support, or simply talking to a homeless individual who needed a shoulder to turn to.
I never had any racial issues at front counter, which I was grateful for, as I had experienced it in every single other job I had held, from being called “the coloured girl” to being told “it’s blacks like you who ruin our country”, to being mimicked because of my Afro. I was told from day one on the job that police do not tolerate racism and to press the panic alarm if a member of public was ever racist. Thankfully, that never happened and I turned to the B-ME Network when Black Lives Matter exploded following George Floyd’s murder in the US. I felt a little anxious being public facing in uniform, because I felt those who are anti-police AND racist had a basis to potentially question what I was doing behind the counter. Again, no such questions were asked but the point was, I had a network to turn to should I need it for support – which I did.
The network actually reached out to me, and it’s because I am of an ethnic minority that emails were sent to myself stating that the network is there to support me if I feel affected by the policing issues in America. I couldn’t believe there was such a huge push on wellbeing for the BAME community and that is when I realised I need to be part of the B-ME Network and meet others in the policing family who are also part of this community. I have found PC Suki Gosal and Supt Amrik Klair particularly inspiring, after hearing of their journeys through West Mercia Police, which only continues to flourish.
I have been with West Mercia a week shy of one year and I know my career will always be within the police force. Without the B-ME Network, I wouldn’t have known how hard police are working to recruit and attain an ethnically balanced force, including officers, staff and volunteers across all departments. I would never have known the support it has to offer to BAME members of public looking to become part of West Mercia’s family, and I would never have understood the importance of using your voice to help demonstrate to others that being of ethnic minority is never a barrier in wanting to join such a rewarding career which offers ample opportunities to all, regardless of race, colour, gender and beliefs.
I am so proud to be part of West Mercia, and thankful that I work in an environment that only seeks to support and develop me both professionally and personally. After 10 months at front counter, I was offered a positon as an Analyst at headquarters, where I will continue to develop, strive to reach my potential and use my voice to help whoever may be listening.
So, what do YOU want to be when you grow up? Just remember, we never stop growing, there is no right or wrong answer and if you want to be part of West Mercia, go for it. The only barrier will be your mindset, the rest is out here waiting for you.